loplimi..

cinta memang aneh! ga rasional!
dulu waktu SMA, suara batuk keluar dari mulut gebetan terdengar laksana papparoti sedang berdendang. sekarang,demi mengobati lara hati yg merindu suara bangun tidurnya saja mampu membuat bibir tersenyum lebar.merekah.indah. ah, cinta....

jogja (in memoriam..)

sie sibuk memahami diri, jadi sulit memahami orang lain. sie akui, sie lebih nyaman sendiri.tp sie ingin belajar menjadi 2 atau 3. (sore di jogja, dibawah pohon beringin, didepan benteng vredeburg)

diantara kantuk dan malamnya, masih ada B tersisa. didalamnya hati yang tak tertebak, B terdiam. siapa B? aku tak tahu!

meresah....

sie sedang resah...
tentang menjadi manusia setelah lulus kuliah. sie tidak ingin dikejar materi, sie tidak ingin mendengarkan suara sumbang dr tetangga, sie hanya ingin menjadi sie. tapi, selalu ada tapi, sie punya 6 kembaran yang selalu tersenyum dalam pahit, yang menjadi alasan sie untuk tetap melihat dunia walau kadang memuakan. sie akan mencoba melakukan jam 8-5 itu 6 bulan ni...klo sie ga nyaman, sie akan keluar...

hm...that I would be good....

That i would be good even if i did nothing
That i would be good even if I got the thumbs down
That i would be good if I got and stayed sick
That i would be good even if I gained ten pounds

That i would be fine even if i went bankrupt
That i would be good if i lost my hair and my youth
That i would be great if i was no longer queen
That i would be grand if i was not all knowing

That i would be loved even when i numb myself
That i would be good even when i am overwhelmed
That i would be loved even when i was fuming
That i would be good even if i was clingy
That i would be good even if i lost sanity

That i would be good whether with or without you

ini tentang mu...

sudah dua malam ini sie menyanyikan lagu ini. berpikir, kembali berpikir tentang sie dan perasaan ini, yang melelahkan, yang membuat tanya, yang akhirnya membuat sie menyanyikan lagu ini...sendu...

You don't know me like you knew me
You stopped listen
The moment that I needed you the most
You can't see me like you saw me
Truth comes easy
But it's hard for you to pull me from the ground

So I scream, scream cause it hurts
Your every word
Cuts me inside and leaves me worst
There's no way back
And what if there was
You'd still be you and I'd still need
To say goodbye

Maybe you don't love me
Like I love you, baby
Cause the broken in you doesn't make me run
There is beauty
In the dark side
I'm not frightened
Without it I could never feel the sun

So I scream, scream cause it hurts
Your every word
Cuts me inside and leaves me worst
There's no way back
And what if there was
You'd still be you and I'd still need
To say goodbye

Nothing will change no matter what you say
I'm still gonna be the same
The harder we try, the harder that we fight
Can't get it right

So I scream, scream cause it hurts
Your every word
Cuts me inside and leaves me worst
There's no way back
And what if there was
You'd still be you and I'd still need
To say goodbye

To say goodbye
Say goodbye